Blog #2

Blog #2 :

“I find it most difficult to express with adequate force that flash , that shiver, that impact of passionate recognition. In the course of the sun-shot moment that my glance slithered over the kneeling child (her eyes blinking over those stern dark spectacles--the little Herr Doktor who was to cure me of all my aches)while I passed her in my adult disguise(a great big handsome hunk of movie-land manhood, the vacuum of my soul managed to suck in every detail of her bright beauty , and these I checked against the features of my dead bride.” (pg.39)

In this passage of Lolita , Humbert first discovered the “nymphet” of his dreams. He states that Lolita reminds her of his old lover Annabel who had passed away by illness years ago . Ever since Humbert lost his Annabel he was strongly in need of that “young” love for it was what he desired the most . In this moment of the book Humbert is touring the house he was going to be renting in for a while because his other house had burnt down . The tour was given by Mrs.Haze , Lolita’s mother , whom he decides to marry just to stay close to Lolita. Although Humbert had no feeling whatsoever for Lolitas mom , he seemed to play his role as a husband very well . Mrs. Haze had no idea that Humbert's real intentions were . This quote is really disturbing to me ,but it was the perfect quote to explain my reactions and what I personally think of Humbert .Humbert seems to be mentally unstable , as which he recognizes in himself . He has this attraction to kids which is completely wrong in any occasion .But  the funny thing is he realizes his problem early on and knows  what he was doing was morally wrong but can't help himself in any way . He holds a strong image as a professional smart adult , but in his mind , what he thinks about sounds as weak as a kids mindset towards his obsession .